Mind In My Mind

I’m torn away and lifeless In a pixilated display cover Not caring or feeling Except showing my own past as a lover Taking it all in stride With nothing to hide anymore The self realization is gone What’s left is how alone I feel Even with a body next to me There’s something quite surreal I can’t shake the idea that I’m not where I’m supposed to be I’m afraid and alone Dry as a bone No motivation or anticipation Can push me further into what I should be Can’t someone push me for once? Can’t anything touch me enough? Why can’t my tortured mind Ever get conscious desires? I get what comes and nothing more It’s black and bleak with no sign of retreat Who can step away from this monogamous feat? I took the higher ground Pretending to be something proud But I’m lost In the mind of my mind.