Midnight Again

Its midnight again, TV on The sofa becomes my bed As the confusion of our lives Fills my weary head At times I drift off And think of days gone by How I yearn for yesterday So bad it makes me cry Other times I feel just like a kid With something new to share And you put your soul around me And tell me how much you care At times I think its working Like I’ve finally met the mark And all too quickly it ends And I’m alone, on the couch, in the dark Why can’t it all be the way it was That day on top of the hill Am I really as bad a person As you can make me feel Inside I try so hard Outside it seems I don’t I want to meet your needs But I don’t know what you want I try to be your husband Your lover and your friend Somehow I never am And I find myself here again I try to be a father But those efforts just backfire Somehow I manage to destroy Everything that I desire I ask myself, “Is it worth it?” Why don’t I start anew And after hours of contemplation Just one answer, “I love you” And resolved to that end I lay my heart to sleep And I pray the lord Our souls together he will keep A silent kiss to you and the kids In hopes of a better day As I close my eyes to dream And let my troubles drift away