Meus Belleus

?Dear god,What’s it like to be near her whole and happy? To touch her smiling face and feel the warmth still there? Have you taken the time to play with each and every heavenly curl of her silky brown hair? Tell me god, Does she smile when I laugh? Or can she even hear me? Can she see me crying in his arms? Does she try and wipe away the tears I cry? Does she watch over me like i should be watching over her... Can she still hear me sing her favorite lullaby at night to help me fall sleep? Dear god, why did you take her from me? You made her sweet voice evade my ears... Did you even try to save her from the greedy hands of Fate? I curse you! What you’ve done is unforgivable! Try and picture how you’ve done it, You’ve left me here without her! Without Meus Belleus! My angel and my love; the one smiling hope I had to hold onto. In all fairness they say...look at her and tell me how this is fair! TELL ME! Does she hate you like I do?! Of course not... she loves everyone, including you. Look at her, do you see the love that radiates in her hazel blue eyes? The smile that always lingers there between the golden flakes and oceans of sapphire blue? How can you even imagine harm befalling such a timelessly hopeful heart as pure as hers? Can you tell her this for me just in case she can’t hear it when I pray? Tell her that I’m happy, lie and make her see. Tell her that I cry for joy and wish I could be as lucky as she to stand among the angels. Show her how I smile when he’s near, let her see me still dancing in the rain; Tell her I’ll dance for her no matter what sickness I gain...And as she watches let me see the beauty of her eyes smiling back at me in the stars that twinkle so faithfully. I’d never wish for anything more... just let me see her happy from her curls to her tiny toes, laughing sweet pearls of hope and joy down to me. I’d give it all to hold her safe and warm in my longing arms, to look upon her sweet pixie face pink with play, glowing with innocence. Dear god, please hold her tight when I break and cry, let her know that some one's holding me too. Don’t let her feel my tears; just let it rain and wash away my darkness. Watch her breathe when I wake, take note of every breath, Please tell her that I love her since I can’t tell her myself. I’ll say it, scream it, and sing it till I know she hears! So I know she knows that to me she was my everything! My angel of hope, my giggling sunshine, my freckle princess...may she rest in Peace in your arms.