Memories

I’m forgetting how to drag these worthless thoughts Through broken and grasping fingertips. Empty is my mind, and yet I struggle to rip away the strangling Emotions that leave me breathless. Repugnantly my contention simply dissipates with the thought of you. Memories of what was and what is clash like fire and ice. It burns more than anything imaginable. I franticly search through the convex parts of my mind hoping to find relief. Abhorrently I find none. The feelings that I worked so hard to get rid of come back. Memories and faded Love breaks through the barricade I work so hard to build and all that I am abruptly turns into all that I was. I scream as the memories pierce into the place that took so long to heal. The place where abandonment and pain are still fresh. The place that once openly held Love, Trust, comfort and...... A heart. Now holds nothing but pain sorrow and regret. Alone I am, yet not The memories are here to keep me company. Your promise is here to give me the reminder of your lies and your touch is here to give me pain. Vivid they are, yet so faded each kiss is a bite each touch is a punch each word is fire and ice. But this isn't what angers me the most This isn't what brings all the pain. The fact that you're still here. The fact that despite all my best efforts to Forget you I can't. Despite all the pain, All the lies. What angers me the most is the fact that I still Love you. I forgot how to drag these worthless thoughts through, broken and grasping fingertips Just as I forgot how not to Love you.-