March 12th

Too long I have put this off for too long I have said to myself to say this aloud yet I contradict myself by putting it off to the next day No more so please stick with me and endure my words for I know they get lengthy I am done in case you don't understand or misheard I'm done done with what Done reporting the tale of the Sorceress done reciting my love of the Sorceress done retorting of how despicable her existence in my life is so this day I kill her so this day her name is dead and she will forever be dead to me I failed to show I was moving on a mistake in communication I failed to prove she was all but a memory now but she would've never listened but she would've never paid attention I spent four years in wasted agony to have her say it to my face she's now engaged I've spent four years in wasted love to have her the words I sculpted in roses thrown back in my face and all that love shoved back down my throat Every instance I defended her name I feel like I should've shunned it denounced it shredded it into a million pieces and made a mosaic in the snow with a mist of yellow fluid or just take it to her doorstep in a drunken rage for I have once again played my one man drinking games well so I thought I'm done. done She can take me off her worry list I have taken her off of mine All I had to her were tainted memories and a grudge against every single person she ever shoved in my face but I guess I loved the pain for I wouldn't have held on for this long but I guess I believed she was the center of this the center of my reasons for writing the part of me that made me a better writer How naive can I be I have doused myself in fire in fire for all the times she doubled crossed my heart in fire for all the lies she forced fed me in fire for all the nights I lay awake in fueled hate for the way she double crossed me So it's this day I say good day So it's this day I say so long So it's this day I say goodbye Goodbye, good riddance for I hate you now more than ever Goodbye, good riddance for you are dead to me forever Goodbye, good riddance for I hope you drown in a pit of despair the one you kicked me down deeper in Goodbye, good riddance for I could care less anymore my forever endeavor has silenced Goodbye, good riddance Sarah the Sorceress Goodbye, good riddance March 12th the day, it means nothing now March 12th the day I died March 12th I douse in fire Goodbye, good riddance