Manic Depressive Climates

Depression is like dying without hope this process will end well, without remediation at least not for my closely held ego-identity, and despair this turning inward creates a cocoon by avoiding outward. Focal awareness of ego mortality, immanent and emanant, eminent, turns inward, returns inward in despairing response against outward; the whats and whos of external metaphysical life. Depression brings tacit fixation on mortality while advanced notice of irremediable pathologies brings focal awareness this is ego's final stage of turning in, away from out, now already on that other side of a great timeless ego-boundary. Those who die alone, whether through depression or physical decomposition, live inside a cloud of memories, worries and anxieties within which hope of further actively interdependent relationship, experience of therapeutic communication, may evaporate especially if this is how we have lived apart together. These alone with worries easily overwhelm abandoned within our depressed boundaries against others, against possibility of natural experience as joy, wonder curiosity compassion love within further health becoming. Depression, especially as it grows chronic, within an individual, within a played-out political culture, within a longterm economic trend, can be accompanied by paranoia. Fear of turning terminally inward. Worry that there is nothing inside still becoming part of outside, without capacity to influence, effect, affect, other than to infect with further contagious anger and depression about isolation and deprivation, neglect of healthy relationship, violent ego-abuse craving therapies for self-administered escape. Internal voices become an anxious debate about over-consuming and under-producing life. Not measuring up to original hopes and intent of co-creating Paradise. Depression is typically humorless, especially when accompanied by flights of paranoia. Humor, whether manically fluid or dryer, more cool sardonic, more vulnerably exposing of ego's childlike dispositions, and adolescent gender-related predator and prey articulations, is not accessible from within paranoia's cocoon of fear that ego's core is empty white cold disassociating noise. Manic oppression of others erupts into the geometric opposite view, what was concave depressed grows convex anger, even rage. Ego becomes SuperEco, equivalent with Earth's polypathic interdependent ecopolitically self-justifying powers, entitlement to terrorizing extremes to take to use to enslave to exploit in return against Earth's profound disappointments and unfairness suffered in the name of others' claims for freedom to own whatever and whomever remains outside Left-your/Right-our self-identified cocoon of integral becoming. Love and humor and regenerate faith lie midway between these two extremes of manic Yang interdependent ecopolitical empowerment and negative dualdark Yin, both depressed for reasons of past mutual oppressions, and feeling antipathically paranoid about this great emptiness inside. Both love and humor evaporate this great barrier reef between tragic depression and comedic obsession with our overpowering egotistic LeftBrain dominant charm. Capitalism, as contrasted with cooperatively co-investing capital, is in idolatrous tension with therapeutic roots of Catholicism and all forms and rituals of Messianic Saviorism. Here lies our incapacity to both serve a regenerative healthy God and a degeneratively reified, desacralized, depressed Mammon, organic Creation without nutritional Creator. Capitalism grows ever more virulently rabid as my ultimate Win always and everywhere must be at your Lose expense; investing in manic ego is my higher priority, and should be, in dubious fact, due to laws of competitive predator nature, must be above cooperative organic investing in ecoEarth as holy Other. Whereas positive faith systems, including all dialects of Judeo-Christianity and Islam, Buddhism and Taoism and Hinduism, teach, and sometimes behave, following WinWin cooperative Golden Rule as Original Intent of regenerate Earth iconized as God and/or Goddess and/or Allah and/or Atman, etc. So, when we hear, through our too often depressed and repressed and suppressed ears, that military threat and violent arms are our ecopolitical first choice to grow economic freedom away from depression, we can also hear the satanic voice of Capitalism growing freedom toward totalitarian manic monoculturing Yangism. Capital, removed from a sacred ecological resource for health co-investment, becomes degenerative of wealth for interdependent freedoms, rooted in this equivalence between universal co-relational identity with Earth, our original embryonic Paradise cocoon, wombing empty integrity, (0)-sum ego-ecopolitical cooperative nondual co-arising intent as timeless interdependent/empty co-identity within RealWorld cooperative spacetime. This barrier reef of Left with Right identity includes both polypathic comedy and antipathic tragedy, yet never all of one unless some of other, each side searching WinWin applications reiterating Left-Right Golden Rules of Tao-balance, recreating freedom synonymous with both heady capital and nondual dipolar tailish eco-equity co-investing fairness. Freedom from depression toward sublime multiculturing wonder; freedom to elate subprime depression's passing.