Maintain Diligence
***Part 2 -last part- of the series, Not Focused (written entirely by J.W. Earnings)***
Hear me out in the dark woods of my bewildered mind and save me from evil deeds
I am intrigued by Your spiritually important, intelligent instruction that improves our function
I cannot stand the vile, egotistical greed I see constantly and sadly, they grow like weeds
I hope we could harness holy harmony within ourselves to do away with destruction
Fortitude's interlude will elevate my traumatized ears definitely
I have heard rejection and hopelessness for many years frankly
Fascinate me sevenfold with flawless freedom that is beyond brilliant
I am severely hurt by the absence of past friends that I deemed significant
With sincere humility and oh so apologetically,
I focus on walking Your precious, narrow pathway
Oh my God, help me to be focused completely
I was not focused – doused in detrimental dismay
Set my gaze from zealous heights above
Allow me to go forward without distractions
I apologize for my downfalls of jaded love
I’m not focused due to expired satisfactions
Discard useless satisfactions…
Disregard my daily distractions
I was not focused on You - I am guilty as charged, but listen, Lord
I was not focusing on Your Word of truth and awe-inspired accord
I was not focused…not focused…the aftermath of my sins, I can’t afford
Sorry for not being focused and unprepared and lazy and bored…
Procrastination paralyzed me and these tears of troubled turmoil, I hoard
Resurrect my hushed, solace-longing voice from the debris
Wandering in the wilderness of unconditional hospitality
Quenched in the qualms of our relationship – are you a friend or a foe?
I must love my enemies, regardless of my shattered frame of mind,
Reducing me to rage and woe, but I will regain my grip of forgiveness though
You appreciate my anticipation and all
You have accepted my faithful prayer passionately
With knowledge of never-ending nirvana
Your audacious, gracious righteousness is my liberty
Ignite me once more with your invincible integrity
Innovate in me your long-suffering, inspirational insight
You can make me a bizarre zero to divine infinity
Conquer me with your incredible patience tonight
I am determined to be all-the-more dependent on You
Instead of complaining about what I’ve gone through
Deliver my lost soul out of worthless captivity
I don’t want to be a prisoner to your awful reality
I need your help through my countless prayers and cries
I breed sorrow, for I was not focused on another tomorrow
Sorry, I hurt you tremendously…I noticed by your goodbyes
You wanted me out of the picture, now I feel numb and hallow
Please hear me out, yes, I will admit…
I wasn’t intimate with shameless bliss…brought low by the abyss
I was trapped in this pangs-of-pain pit
Distracted at all angles and I was not focused on sheer cheerfulness
I pray I be rescued by God-sent angels from this regret on the brain
Refrain from driving me insane! Your departure threw me down the drain!
Take heed of my screwed-up, muffled voice
I was extremely vulnerable…
Defeated by disdain with no choice
I was sensitive and unstable…
You should have noticed that I was not focused…
I have tried to change, although I fussed and cussed…
Forgive me always, You must…
I was not focused…not focused...
Gladness rusts and turns to dust
And, again, falling victim to lust...
I long for a few more chances to earn back Your tranquil trust!
These stupid shenanigans and poor choices – I didn’t mean to bust..
I already know I was not focused on smiling away the hardships
I couldn’t help but carelessly kiss our broken promises' cruel lips
Worrying will get me nowhere near the path of pure, placid prosperity
Desert the temptation of being distracted – I was not focused, so I’m sorry
Trust me, I will focus on being hopeful and happy, not acting insecure and coy
I won't doubt; instead, I’ll walk His remarkable route for the sake of surreal joy
I was not focused, but I won’t be negative and in despair anymore
Friend of mine, the one that got away…change is a challenging chore…
I was not focused; however, I will persistently figure out a way
To maintain focus as I get back on track towards Your pathway
Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2018
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