Maintain

Ask me how I'm doing now and I'm just maintaining, just to maintain it Its raw deep and seeded, an explanation doesn't really justify the details I knew i was stronger than most when i consoled my own heart As i silently watched you give away everything that i ever deserved Its been a few more years past now and it still hurts I feel jaded, I held on for so long, rewriting the wrongs Somedays it just feels like ripping the stitches out of wounds over and over I don't even know anymore how to approach it, I just want closure But it hurts me to have to hurt you And then when you do hurt, I hurt again too, pain times two So, I let my heartbreak for your heart, so your heart don't have to just to sustain you There is a rawness and discord intertwined in that type of pain So, I bare the burden of your heartache just to protect you I can't let the anguish and atrocities subdue and consume you So I give every allegiance and conviction that I have in me, to you So that I can endow you.