Madre Save Me

I had lost you in my head, n day by day went without u, I had it all n to myself, big, and all of the above, I was living a Dangrous life but thts wht I wanted. On my knees n looking at the grass a glock in the back of my head n the guy behind the gun, willing To do whatever it took to be the best, "ur time is up, u knw how it is right just is wht it is", "No!!!!!" One of the biggest n loudest with a echo scream I heared, my mom, scared the guy n shoot me in the back, right lung my mother hold me in her arms 30 mins waiting for the ambulance, i was in n out hearing her talking to me praying n asking for help words bearly would come out, "It's time to clear things out n get things out of the way with god, he'll judge if i stay or go with him, please mom stop crying for me." One full month in the hospital critical conditions only woke up 5 times n always she was there no matter wht she wanted to be there. "You don't learn do you?" My mom said laying on the sofa "I'll be back, have to take care of one thing" I replied "We all have a mother just keep tht in mind". On ur knees, u got anything to say? As I had a glock in the back of the head of the one who shoot me. "I should of killed u n now its my lost." He told me "U have a mother?" I asked "Screw u." He replied " go to ur mother n thnk her because of her ill let u live." Mother asleep with a tear, kissed her forhead. I couldn't do it becuase i don't want a mother to suffer wht my mother passed through.