Love's Embrace

Me and relationships will never last Because eventually you must embrace the past. And my past was fast and painful I messed up many times I was no angel Mean and hateful That was me... Just longing to be free from me. Me! There was no other But the hurt that bound my mother was relentless God just endless Filled with hurtful words and stitches I was called all types of names... just viscious... But my father My poor father I don't know why he even bothered I was a messed up useless daughter But I changed... I changed that hate to smiles and laughter Ha! I should have been an actor No no sorry I meant actress And as I laid upon my mattress I practiced Now my smile brings you closer But to feel what's inside No sir. I can promise its not kosher My emotions their so twisted I swear to god they must have missed it When I told them I'm demented And I meant it. God I'm sick And you can't see it. Because my smiles hide the bleeding And the darkness is just weaving Through my veins and its just feeding So in love I have to fake it. Till they see the real me And they can't take it. They realize that I am naked And my soul is already taken. So forever life is lost. And love's the cost