Love Taunts Me

NAME:SHIVANEE BRIDGEMOHAN DATE:2ND JULY 2015 LOVE TAUNTS ME WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES AND REFLECT ON THE PAST, WHERE IT WAS JUST YOU AND ME,KNOWING THAT THE CHOICE I MADE AT THAT INSTANT MEANT SPENDING EVERYDAY WITH A HOLE IN MY HEART, A HOLE ,THAT I SPENT YEARS TRYING TO MEND, TRING TO FILL, AND THE MEMORIES I TRIED TO BURY AND LOCK AWAY LIKE AN ANCIENT RELIC NEVER TO BE FOUND AGAIN. WHEN I SEE YOU IT CHANGES, WHEN I STAND NEXT TO YOU MY HOLE SEEMS TO CURE ITSELF, WHY? WHY DO YOU TAUNT ME SO? I GAVE UP YOUR LOVE BECAUSE I THOUGHT MAYBE IT WAS THE BEST THING FOR US, MAYBE IT WOULD MAKE THINGS BETTER, MAYBE YOU WOULD LEARN TO TREAT ME BETTER, TO APPRECIATE THE LOVE I HAD FOR YOU,HAVE FOR YOU, MAYBE THEN YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND THE ROLLER COAST RIDE I TOOK JUST TO BE WITH YOU, THE FIGHT TO FINALLY WIN YOUR HEART. NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY TO HIDE, YOU FIND ME, BUT WHY? I DON’T UNDERSTAND I CAN’T, AM WITH SOMEONE NOW I LOCKED YOU AWAY WHERE I CAN’T FIND YOU, WELL SO I THOUGHT. THERE WAS THIS PLACE I SAW YOU AND I COULD NOT TAKE MY EYES AWAY FROM YOU AND YOUR’S WAS LOCKED TO MINES AS IF THE HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE IN THE CROWD WERE INVISBLE AND ALL WE SAW WAS EACH OTHER. WE STARED FOR AWHILE UNTIL I LOOKED AWAY I KNOW HOW I FELT BUT I DENIED IT, BUT I COULDN’T NOT UNDERSTAND WHY YOU CAME CLOSE TO ME, WHY DID YOU TOUCHED ME, WHY DID YOU KISS ME? IT MADE NO SENSE, YOU BELONG TO SOMEONE NOW YOU GAVE YOUR HEART AWAY, THEN WHY ARE YOU NEAR ME, WHY DO YOU KISS ME AND WHEN YOU DO I FEEL AS I AM PARALYZED, IS THERE SOMETHING YOU WANT TO TELL ME? I BROKE YOUR HEART, WE SPENT YEARS APART EVEN THOUGH WE REMAINED FRIENDS, EVEN THOUGH I THOUGHT THIS WAS WHAT I WANTED, WHY CAN’T YOU LEAVE ME? WHY DO YOU ALWAYS COME AND FINE ME? YOU MAKE ME FORGET THE REALITY OF US WHICH CAN NEVER BE. IT IS A DREAM, THERE IS NOTHING CAN ME DONE, WHY DON’T YOU SAY IT? WHAT’S IN YOUR HEART, WHY THE GAMES? WHY THE INABILTY TO SPILL IT, AND LET ME KNOW HOW YOU REALLY FEEL, THEN I WILL KNOW THAT I SCARIFICED THE ONLY LOVE I HAVE EVER KNOWN AND THE ONLY LOVE THAT I WANT AND NEED TO BE HAPPY. DO TELL ME BABE! TELL ME HOW YOU REALLY FEEL AND STOP TAUNTING ME