Love of My Life?

She was a new girl to me, a day before she never existed I seen her the first day of tenth grade, mind full of serious intentions The repped the same style I did, but she was’nt interested The end of school on the bus ride home She asked where her stop was, I told her but let her walk alone Later I found out it was far from close Than I remembered it was 7 blocks away Than it finally hit me, she was my homeboys lady We started talkin more, the convos were nice Than she mentioned her man, I was envious and enticed To ask her on a date and she did’nt refuse Charlie had dissed her or so the story goes A few weeks later I heard the news They had sex, I felt nervous like I was abused Soon it was like Information about charlie was all of my use The next time I saw her, she was’nt as nice You can tell she was sad by the look in her eyes She was cryin for a long long time What he took from her was sugar and spice Months later she told me what they had A deep long relationship, so of course she was sad I told her be strong and never give up Theres always somebody for someone so we hooked up Things were good for the first eight months Loving and hugging is all that there was Not knowing what lay ahead in the future Took it all for granted, but always said I loved her Start of eleventh grade things went wrong I started to get moody, felt confined but still felt strong Told her I did’nt want this much, damn I was flawed did’nt want this much responsibility and attention Should have known, you need that with this kind of relationship I wish I knew that way back than She was special to me, she was my loyal bestfriend Situation was like this for the next two years I felt in control of another persons life I was so stupid and soon came by biggest fears Never thought that I’d feel like this For her I cried, oh god what did I miss? I’m in her place now with the memories and tears Why was’nt I there for her when she was lost and scared When the tables turn you feel so helpless Wanna go back to the very first day you met this, beautiful person And say how much you’re sorry for the future and the unintentional diss Lesson learned, don’t take for granted someone elses love and heart It will come back to you 10 times harder and tear you apart