Love Not Evil

Intellectual progress with thee beyond this, that, here or even there of matter within what color, shape, size, weight, etc All in all, we started with for example if you were to use a pencil or a pen, marker, etc. Indefinitely once that utensil is put to a piece of paper. It begins within a point to draw a line or many lines or a circle, etc Either way, the lines connect to another and another and another Since the beginning of time LOVE backward is EVOL, hence vice versa Did it all start with a point, a dot? I think I'm tryna prove a point Not for you, her, him or even them It's beyond and above all this evil Living in different people A born autistic bipolar schizophrenic But yet I think I know my limits I'm in a learning process Yet EVIL backward is LIVE learn to live without all that evil Voices never go away yet I try to be civil, I've been at war with myself since birth, I'm so confused with everything but I do know about Love yet I've never been in true Love, Unconditional Love since birth every day kinda feels cursed I struggle with what u can't imagine my voices go from 5 to 100 at once even famous celebrities voices Trains, Bangs, Screams daily above all things, I struggle daily yet I need to be here for these kids. I try hard to control my own lurking evil trying to come out for I'm a born psychopath I'm insane, not crazy, it sometimes drives me crazy but I don't let it come out, my kids need me, what's real and unreal bring me to tears, every day is a struggle I try to stay calm, I don't wanna lose it, I'll blackout and wipe out an entire house, even a little mouse, some people are just not worth it, I gotta live for my kids. not for all this evil. I gotta break some type of cycle. but I'm on my own, with a million voices every day I struggle with suicidal thoughts but then it goes with a different face, I can't help it but I try, I STILL KNOW HOW TO FORGIVE AND LOVE, if I can do it you can do it. Evil and love don't sound right, but every day. live and evolve, live and love, evil and live don't really belong together but backward is more sensible. I could lose my mind any dam time, Dementia is in my future, Blessed to be alive this long, then again I'm barely learning to live without so much evil yet I'm filled with so much love I gotta move and move to spread more love