Love Letter

This is my weeping love letter And the ink is all the tears I’ll never cry As I wander nearer suicidal death So afraid of feeling anything again I ache emotionally ragged The cruelest words could not but bring One more surging heart-emotion Kiss me and I’ll die from pain The smile you see is manufactured The laughter jest and emptiness Forgive my social isolation True healer you will never be I wish my heart would only break Spilling every final drop of blood Killing dying I surrender Forget me as you turn away Or did you think that you could save me Virgin child still a whore How many have you given chase to Instead of waiting for my dying eyes I plunge steal swiftly violence Spurting blood destruction sinking body Watch me I redeem myself Of one more passion betraying fire Is there nothing holy white Excellent beauty divine affection I seek the impossible unworthy And fail and fall and This is my weeping love letter The ink is all the tears I’ll never cry I wander nearer suicidal death Afraid of feeling anything again