Louder Hopes and Softer Dreams

I'm living every dream and nightmare And you're the only place I know that feels safe As a friend, or maybe more My hopes are too loud to decipher And my dreams are growing ever softer Rattle my heart and taunt me with the keys to the cage That only exists because I lost focus and rage I claimed that all that I wanted was a friend to the end When really all that I craved was to be locked up again Douse my mind in gasoline Old dreams and memories Will light the fuse And uncover it all I knew I was only strong when you were far away And I hate to be weak, but God, you sound so perfect And every dream or fear I've had is coming to light And I don't want to hope so loud That the devils around begin to listen in And drive me back to despair after I start to win I only just learned how to march on my own And now that you're back, I'm scared to be alone