Lost Time---Old Friend

Too deeply I think, crashing around in my mind Old age....Approaching death, desperation to find Lost time, old friend your keeping, a wonder Moments I've missed and forgotten, much longer Time I once knew, where you went hiding under. Holding me hostage, for knowledge I hunger I try to recall, why they are lost I assumed my disinterest, back then, wouldn't cost My old friend; lost time Hear me beg, see me crawl I will listen, please tell me I loved life, overall Answering my need, time appears I can feel My loss is as strong, as the voice I hear real; "On your side I was there, not waiting but creeping Slowly each tick, your clock is now weeping Think back if you can and are able to see I was always there giving, great moments were free Don't beg for more time, I was squandered for speed You were quick, didn't look back thought of only, 'your' needs" Clearly I heard, these words in my head Etched deep inside, softly I said; "I hear you old friend", understanding at last. "My moments of you, are forever my past" "Into hiding each went, time slipped away I didn't embrace or invest, life's time to play" "My time wasn't lost, just taken too swift No more chances, no do-overs seems I wasted your gift" "The end of my journey soon 'will' arrive I just can't leave yet, feeling robbed and deprived" A thought then occurred, I stood absolute Deciding to act, to continue pursuit. Maybe with luck, perseverance and will I can salvage whats left, my time to fulfill Teach myself to appreciate, value time a new way Understand life's existence, what we have...how we pay To 'just see' moments, as thoughts I've contrived Is not enough presence, fulfillment can't thrive I will, make a change. Choose deed over mind Never again, opt out or be blind I'll be part of life's play, satisfied in my climb In the end kick my heels, saying; "Thank's life! I had a great time". ...The End