Lost Interest

3/20/22 Maybe eventually we'll find other lifeforms An intense sensation and feeling inside of my core Paid for it, been quite the fight, like a war Aware of it but much of it I ignored Struck by five swords Stuck in several ice storms Sometimes I'm torn Working on figuring out life more Don't got time for Praying and asking "why Lord?" Won't do good like focusing on a high score Or just relying on items from a supply store The same could be said for suicide doors And cyborgs People will never get off their high horse Meanwhile I refuse to die poor Leaving behind nothing Is mind-numbing Let me help, look deep inside yourself And you'll find something Truth be told In order to seize hold Airstrikes and torpedoes Been this way since a week old Corruption and ignorance carries on, hardly ever vetoed In the past a lot of trees smoked For such a long time, I lost interest But now I can't afford to stop a minute I got to finish It isn't talk or gimmicks No I don't want a picnic Or Honda Civic This is going beyond optimism I'm still on a mission Won't ever get there, if I'm not committed Drunk so much alcohol I thought I found it all At times I would sip wine Never strychnine I don't think it all is fine I didn't , but eventually I did mind Atop a hill climb What I seeked to still find Was found inside Within time No matter what the sun shall, let's see if I will shine Across any ridge line Support or go against it and get in line