Lost Child

The child was lost Through no fault of mine I wanted to have it But it wasn't the right time I hid my emotions I didn't want to mourn But I couldn't help it It didn't want to be born I didn't tell a single person Until a long time after Then someone close to me Went and told the father I'd had a miscarriage And he didn't even care If the child had been born He wouldn't have been there After he'd been told And he talked to me I cried for days on end But my tears no one had seen I shut myself away And hid inside my room I lay cuddling a teddy I held it against my womb But years have passed I think I'm over it now I know it never developed But I still miss it somehow