Lost Cause

Is it wrong To want love? To be the giver and receiver Of a feeling that eludes most But leaves some satisfied Or will I be continually Denied Of this mysterious gift From God... Meaning, I literally hunger for More than the scraps that fall to the Floor The leftovers of broken hearts or Scheming ways from when she did you this Or that way... But I'm not her So why are you making me pay? While you play tug of war with my heart My body you desired Conspired to conquer Just that Although I mapped out my soul... "Why won't you take all of me" I consoled myself Wiped my own tears away In fear of you leaving me Alone But your heart was never there And in despair and desperation I moved on to another with My broken heart from our So-called love affair Only for love to elude me again... Is it me or the men I choose? And if its me or my choices, then either way... I lose.