Lost But Found

Have you ever been, So lost and annoyed you stopped progressing, So paranoid of where you’re heading, So many demons that you face on your own, In your zone but making ya feel frozen, Paralyzed because it’s too much to deal with, Yes that’s within me, real and uncut, The beliefs that I once had have switched up, About to erupt because this way of life just doesn't seem to be enough, Acquaintances in my circle criticize and advise me to quit, But in my own mind I really don't give a @#&%!!!!! So don’t regret bad decisions that you make, Instead learn from the mistakes, I’m a grown man so I try to forget the negative thoughts that are forced upon me, Even when I’m about ready to quit, All alone but in the midst I long with an appetite, Something hard to grasp is what you're after, right? Why is it so difficult to invite sight within my inner scope? Remembering I’ve got hope and the possibility of afterlives, But, what’s the probability of that within all the lies? Can an individual find peace in death? I confess I don’t know! Exhale from a deep breath, Just when I thought there was nothing left I found air when I least expect, And accept I don’t know the answers, Advance to accept I’m depressed and stressed out because of this worlds mess, With composure I’m thankful that I’m breathing and alive with awareness, Locked up on this path wanting disclosure, I’ve stopped wishing I’m on the home stretch of this way of life that I’ve chosen, Rather find faith in myself, And escape what is felt when I’m face to face with my deepest threats, So I don’t partake and move on from the dread I was once feed, My mind has bleed for too long so I awake from this trend, And live life as it comes, Yes Lord!!! Quincy Mac Date Written: 2.4.2016