Losing Someone

The sun won't shine for me After my mother died Apart of me went with her Everyday is a challenge the thought of should I live or die races through my mind It ripped apart my soul and stole my heart I live each day numb just passing by To my friends and family I lie I'm fine I say As I cut myself each day Maybe I think some how it will help take the pain away for a moment so I can feel something to feel human Instead of so lonely so messed up I've learned to hate life despise it The hard sting of betrayal Scars me I don't believe in happiness anymore I've learned to live with heart ache I sometimes wonder if I am dead and this is my version of hell