Losing Sight of the Shoreline

It's been a year to date since the day I found myself overjoyed Now after reckless fights and confrontations in her eyes...I thought I saw tomorrow now all I find is wasted time You can look for me now stuck in the same circle where I try to find a way to run back in time where I try to search her face for truth or to let myself know she was a lie I once wished to hold her once more but instead now I wish to never again hear her honey tainted voice I just can't stand to think about it but it's all my hands can allow myself to do while the words won't let me say anything else Not now...not now... March 12th,2009 Why did it have to betray me so bad why can't I just burn the date and forget Why am I left alone with a grieving face under the veil of water the clouds leak Does life really despise me so greatly What is worse is I believe she got over me before she had the chance to toss me away How can I be sure, how can I be sure I, now have fallen for her best friend I, now am sinking with the ship I can't face the shoreline not again or it will give me hope, one day I may return home I'm hanging by a thread losing my grip on everything I knew to be... to be... to be... to be... ...true...