Looming Feeling

I admit, I've had a beer and smoked some sticky green But the pain always lingers and never truly leaves That feeling of loneliness, I reach out and no one cares While the world begs for it's savior Not even realising he is there... I'm not what you thought I was I didn't even come the way you imagined But I'm suffocating in silence So many years of holding my breathe. Sometimes I convince myself it's better this way No one can Judge me. Tell me what I'm supposed to be I'm not afraid of dying but living Feels like I'm some kind of anomaly Some say it's all in my head...but quite literally it really is.. It's not that Im insane it's just.. I'm a invisible kid.