Living Or Dead

Afraid of growing old Afraid of losing my health and job Afraid of losing my youth and good looks Afraid of not being needed and being needy Some older friends say to me do not get old Afraid of going into a home and sitting in urine all day Afraid of being sexually mentally and financially raped Afraid of being left for dead in a body that is alive but useless Afraid of being nobody Afraid of being a foot note in nobody's history Afraid of afraid Some of the advertising for nursing homes Just paradise-pay the high entrance fees and Jesus will greet you at the gate Like the old may river song “I am tired of living but afraid of dying” But may not want to just keep rolling along