Livin In a Fantasy

Livin in a Fantasy Hope it ain’t a trap Voices in my head, They keep on whisperin: There ain’t No Coming Back!! Sucked Down Under Into a World Always Unknown; Many, Many, Many Men; They say “You’re Not Alone” When I get there What do I see? A bunch of Funky dudes lookin at me I take a deep Breath Take a step closer to the fire It’s Cold OutSide Liven on the Wire I let them catch me Now I gotta be Bold Take a look around me My Heart, My life is sold I try to take a step, my legs a little weak Everything Around me is gunna make me weep After Living in Self-Hatred, Imaginary Friends All I wanna do is laugh here, What is it? Could it be untainted Love? Liven in a Fantasy, Hope it ain’t a trap Voices, oh Voices, in my Head, keep on saying: “There ain’t NO Coming Back!!” Liven in a NightMarish Fantasy, Hope to make it out Alive For all I know, I’m on OverLoad, Completely Brain Fried. So Tired from THE STRUGGLE, Worried, So Sick My Voices start to do their mommying, Whispering: “Just to let you know, You been a Soldier at War You have taken hit n hit n hit, Without Running to the door. Now You come to a place, Where the Party looks fine” They tell me “No More Worries, No More playing Don’t Drop the Dime” Thankful But Worried and it begins to show, The sweat starts to pour, feel a frizz in my ‘fro. Hopin No one Notices and they don’t start a fight Not that I’m scared, But I’m tired from the Flight. I take a step Closer, Closer to the Scene I relax a little as the stares begin to fade, I wonder if the workers here really care, Or are they in it to get paid? Everyone is Smiling, the guys Crack Some Jokes My New Life is Just Beginning; Here at Lamoille County Mental Health’s Wellness Center Now my life is Lovely, With friends who Remain True, And I owe it to those that brought me in, the Noble Boys in Blue. Written By StarHeart JacobsJones, 2014