Like the Raven Said'

Like The Raven Said''' Late at night sitting with sleep deprived thought.... Spinning around as I turn endlessly over and over in my mind, I hear in the distance the hour of midnight strike my Grandfather's Clock.... As I deeply consider the chaos I feel inside, Dreaming violence once taught... Delving within the realm of my inner most understanding.... I can see rain falling on a sunny day, wind blowing strong, Painfully seeking emotion once felt without all these scars screaming with agony in a heart still bleeding... As I am walking with this weight so heavily, Like, That of pain carried in my soul for years too many... Still, Why do I burden myself with such sorrow, Thus creating this fiendish being blinded by selfish need.... For a way to see that I always will hurt and bleed, Heartbroken, I Suffer often.... Choking back tears, because im nearly meeting an early coffin, Crying Even as I sleep....... Giving birth to nightmarish dreams where demons are feasting waiting like thieves.... Regret..... Regret.... Regret... Time to focus my thoughts distinguishing between the difference in life's chosen doors Happiness or Misery Forevermore....?