Lifeless

Never thought the day would come where I would lose you. The pain that is beard when I am forced to push you out of my ****** lifeless, The same way I felt the day your father walked out on me. Depression sets in as I feel the walls beginning to close in Forcing me to realize just how much pain I am in. The pain of losing my first child, who was conceived out of love and later that love died. Like the machine that beeps when someone flat lines. I feel like my insides have been ripped out of me Leaving me lifeless like that body that was found on the cold cement.