Life Haunts Me

Life haunts me! Every aspect of it.....haunts me ! It did not give me peace, is not giving me peace, suppose will never endow me with peace. Not till the day, i finally escape from it. Constant, a bitter halo surrounds, questions, questions ! remains ever unanswered. All I wanted is to live by my heart, wanted to breathe free, and the world to understand me. What am I ? Why am I ? What purpose do i serve ? Rode through million lectures but I still starve. I am but a misfit, an outsider, never wanted to wield brain, muscle or power or strike life with lethal strategies, tiresome masquerades and facade every hour. In vain, waited and searched, for a life deserving for me. Supreme and cruel it is, nothing but a conspiracy. I cannot calculate or lie, wear any mask, diplomacy and deception, indecency and dominance, manipulate and massacre, always been to disgusted to master. These are the tools of the Devil, the scourge from his kingdom of hell, then what should we think of our world, heaven? No my friend, it is the excerpts of HELL! Feelings and emotions, with the purity of my heart, has only made me a mad man, in the evil eyes of the world. I want to breathe free, the world to understand me, to live by my heart,......... or this evil earth, I will only abhor thee. Oh! how I abhor thee. Please perish me, from this nonsense life, and from all of its haunting miseries. (June 04, 2019)