Letting Go

Your smile has faded And your eyes no longer see The things that you loved And what attracted you to me I see only now Your disappointment and hurt And your adoring voice Is now angry and curt It is now as I’ve suspected The beginning of the end No longer wanting to be my lover My companion or friend I sit now and ponder Everything that I’ve missed The clues that were apparent On the rare occasions we kissed How could I be so clueless To your boredom and disdain Your lack of enthusiasm When I now call your name I guess I was just stupid To think I had what was needed To make you happy and content My inner voice I should’ve heeded But now it’s too late My inadequacies are too much You no longer enjoy my company My voice or my touch I have only myself to blame For wanting more than I deserve For thinking you could really be happy With someone who’s a little too quiet and reserved I do want to thank you For all the years you did try For trying your best to love me And to this day I’m unsure why This is not self pity Or an attempt to make you feel sad It’s just a realization of me At what I almost had I now know it’s time To let you be free To unburden you with all my crap And to succumb to what’s not to be Losing you will be painful And losing our life together even more so But seeing the ghost you’ve become I see I must now let you go.