Late Night Thoughts

My worst fear came alive again last night My heart dropped and my face went pale with fright I wanted to shut down completely But I knew I wouldn't do it discreetly So I sat solemn faced behind my deck of cards Who knew that holding back would be so hard? You told me that you think of me as your wife That you're so happy I'm a part of your life But yet my soul started to ache And my body began to quake The reality finally settled in Dark and foreboding as sin Driving home I wanted to die My whole life felt like a lie Her perfect face was all I could see My mind was buzzing like an angry bee Never ending crystal tears clouded my vision I knew I had to make a decision Should I end my life or keep on living? Neither one is very forgiving. But a voice whispered to me through my cries And told me I didn't have to die It's not my place to determine my fate God simply told me to wait... it's not too late My life is worth so much more So I can't wait to see what's in store.