Late Night Overthinking

Late night overthinking Heart racing, made up situation anticipating Feelings chasing, dread encasing I return, rewind to the start, replaying the awful part. When they said that, what did they actually mean? Conversation misconstrued, I probably came across really rude! Going through that scenario Searching for a way to let it go Heart racing, situation is escalating Tears rolled, feelings uncontrolled I was the glue...holding it all together, what happened? Who knew? Mentally stumbling Rock and a hard place, Put on your brave face Dulling my shine When will my mind be mine? Getting caught on my thoughts Trying to shake it, positive thinking, deep breathing, count to ten, not working - count again. Feeling like I'm sidestepping, continually procrastinating, forever underestimating I'm in the way, just annoying, self efficacy so low, what to do? I don't know! People do this so much better, Heart still racing, face sweating Non stop fretting, forever regretting Everybody knows, cognitive overload Short term-isms vs long term gains, Refrain, hold back, don't do that! Don't call them.. what would you say? You can't say those words, total dismay Stop it now, enough damage done Heart racing, painstakingly debilitating Beating faster, approaching disaster She looked at me funny, although, that was ten years ago! It was a silly thing to say, nobody got it anyway! I've definitely spent too much money Have a drink - stop the overthink Numb it out, dim the shout Not going to have time, I can't be late thoughts re-group, consolidate Move out the way, pushing thoughts to one side, no where to hide, missing my stride Am I mentally unstable?...No, normally quite able Damn it, forgot the birthday card How could I forget when I was remembering so hard Heart racing, anxiety overtaking Energy is decreasing, thoughts requiring releasing. Confidence - an easy task, smiling - just a mask Need to sleep, mind too deep Deep breathing, count to ten - not working, count again. Same time tomorrow? why yes of course! Powerless to stop the overthinking force