Last Moments With Mom

Never would I have guessed as I spoke to you over the phone that it would be the last time. Had I known I may have simply refused to hang up the other line. Never thought the last time I hugged you I would never wrap my arms around you ever again. Or maybe I would have held on longer hoping it would never end. Never thought I'd run out of time to express to you how much you meant to me. Because definately I would have told you, you were my only reason to be. Had no clue that there would be no tomorrow to have dinner at home with you. Or I would have come over once a day, perhaps even two. I have been without you and lost for nearly a year now. People say it will get easier but I don't see how. Everyday is a happy thought followed by a tear. Brought on by a memory then the thought that you aren't near.