Kiss Stains of Shame

Your kiss-aids on wounds is but an epic fail We had the perfect time of our lives Till unhappiness and sadness arrives Lost in the perplexity of our fantasies I have fed the fires of your lust disease Darkness consumes me again… Go ahead and give me your pain… This pen drains out the verses Of life's endless gifts and curses I lay in bed alone, no one to cuddle with Figuring me out is but a vexing labyrinth Ah, say no more…close that damn door… You must adore…hurting me to the core… You brought me creativity during these hard times Well, here are dimes for your thoughts I will embrace clarity's crimes…those clever crimes Internalize my guilt as your soul rots You killed me alive tonight, this weird night Sorry, couldn’t put up with this insanity inside You thrilled me with your might that burns bright Free me, wouldn’t it be easier to freedom abide? Guess you neglected the kind words I said to you earlier You’ll never understand that your pain is a shattered mirror I dread it’s the end of you and me forever… Still, I sit still, wrapped in solitude's sweater I gave it my all to trust you with all my heart Have some mercy on my soul before I rip apart Numb the pain I succumb to on a daily basis Can’t completely fathom all this, can’t mask it with a kiss Can’t mend me or stitch me closed Your lies and true colors are exposed Hiding and running away is what you do…how distressing… So, quit your B.S.ing…who are you impressing? Erase me in your cranium's memory Can’t undo the hurt I put you through You haunt me so true in my mind's misery Won’t push the limits like you do Like you always seem to do… It’s like you don’t mind the insecurity and anxiety I feel Try to corrupt my innocence, but you can’t, you senseless rat! You can’t.. These peace-abiding angels – with them, I made a deal Never selling my soul to the devil, so hear me out with this summarized rant… What you done to me has done enough damage All is water and debris under the wretched bridge Hate me all you want…can’t laugh at my downfalls anymore Nor can you haunt and taunt what remains of me You left your stupid dignity and victory during war… I’m brave enough to push away the shame in perseverance I hold flames of fearlessness in my palms of promised radiance You are unforgotten and nestled nicely in my nostalgic noggin Who wins? Who has gone missing? I ask myself as I regret this one sin I have done a great amount of irksome evil-doing My awful fate and its aftermath, forever brewing Neon lights flush away the sorrow from my inner being, never really misleading Chase away the insidious voices in my head, eternally bleeding…grief keeps breeding… The horrendous dark side of me… Can’t kiss away the nasty vanity! Change me, I dare you Yeah, possibly, I can’t undo… This horrible thing I did What’s wrong with me? About…everything, kid… Suppose you’re too blind to see.. Believe me…relieve me, watch me grow But don’t grieve me, you despair-vain best-seller Hell, I’m regretless for another tomorrow Wishing you the same thing, you yesterday-dweller Curious of what lies ahead As dread piles on in my head Your so-called truth is a sugar-coated, deceiving fairytale