Kinya's Battle

When will my mind be mine? With Ana I was never given the choice to sign, I was more so forced to put my name on the dotted line, From that point on I’ve never actually considered myself “fine,” And it’s actually gotten worse with time, So I ask again when will MY mind be MINE? I’m constantly overthinking every little thing and I hate it, There’s just something that my brain doesn’t get, I’m finally in a state of relaxation once she’s done taking her hit, And because I’m anxious all the time there’s just some things that I’ll never be able to admit, And even that makes me anxious just a little bit. I can’t stop these thoughts that overpower my mind, When I think I’m ok Ana thinks of something else to find, And I’m forced to listen to her as a type of guide, So I ask yet again, when will MY mind be MINE? I’m willing to fight, I’m willing to let all my anxious thoughts ignite, I’m willing to do anything as long as I’ll be able to sleep at night, MY mind will be MINE.