Kamikazi's Poem

KAMIKAZI'S POEM You were my baby, a gift, and I was so in love with you... They say to love all your children the same, but that isn't possible to do. Being older, counseling, risking my life to have you. Having cervical cancer, they said Abort, to follow thru~we'd both die. Because you were mixed, my mother said she'd disown me and made me try. Went to appt, saw machine and it made me sick. Got up and left, couldn't do it, that night felt your first kick. I quit all drugs and drinking and carried you full term. We'd be riddled w cancer, I'd hemorrhage, or in hell I'd burn. With faith in God, had you natural, w Dawn and Cris at my side. No mishap, no cancer, you were healthy and so beautiful that I cried. Despite my mothers threats and racism, you were loved and accepted. You say being mixed was hard, but you were popular and respected. So cute and charismatic, you erased prejudice and bias. You fit in and were favored by all who lived by us. I loved you deeply and do even still. A gift from God and your genetics, you have great passion and skill. I'm sorry you hate me, say I failed you, and see me in worse possible light. I gave you ten times more than was given me to make you alright. Just remember who you were named for, and how you came to be. You can hate me to death, but with your gift comes responsibility. Please use it to teach, to lead, rise above bias, address racism, demand equality, change the world~ be the best God sent you here to be... Your mother, BambiLynn'14