Kali

Kali, Kali, Kali She is the sated navy night Swathed with soldering white stars Warm summer air, coastal dream An unwavering fortune of deep, red Eden grapes Hanging like drops of sweet wine Shifting with dark leaves the balmy breeze with trees that sound like tumbling seas, singing, “Kali, Kali, Kali” She is a lullaby, a reverie At home and away She carries all of it with her A man’s entire heart, Italian spells Her golden hips curving like a bell slender spindle legs sun kissed shoulders wrapped soft, she is a doll with air-brushed skin Kali, Kali, Kali… You will always win While I will never be enough Kali, your legacy presses knives in me Making my hour glass body an inadequate pendant with an unfortunate name a ripped blue dress second rate lips falling to the floor, sore… My nights pulse only with heavy music Rummaging suits, dark rooms sticky floors, cigarettes, señores and a dizzied mind hoping this night will pass and I’m terrified, Love Because even when you’re with me I can’t be home And I can’t be my own My blood’s too dense And my heart’s too free This, Kali makes me see I am not a dream But broken seams My intentions covered over By the song of tumbling seas I’ll only ever be Unworthy me… Alli…