Just Wondering

It's cold and I can't stand the rain. This pain is driving me insane. It's hard to maintain as I watch my soul drift away. Sometimes I wonder if god will is to make me pay. Pay for all the crimes that i have committed. Or pay for all the heart that I have broken. Can anybody show me the way. I guess this pain is here to stay. Don't make sense to repent because, In the end I'm going to burn anyway. Can't dream anymore because Ican never get away. Because now I'm one with the pain. That's why I walk through the valley of darkness with n o shame.