Judge Me Not

I'm a living abortion, If there's a heaven, I can't find my portion, The world is so cruel and cold, Therefore, I set up my own heat and remain bold. My life is a cap to the head, And a prayer for the dead, Sleep is the cousin of eternal death, Therefore, I refused to die in dearth. I'm the manifestation of a study, Facing different devils but remained sturdy, I can't speed for cocaine and weed, The combination makes my heart bleed. The society made me reject my destiny and devour my fate, I'm making a living out of the nasty life they gave me before it's late, Patience was a virtue but I wasn't used to waiting, Therefore, I weaved my soul to a cause without baiting.