Jaded

Someone to hold me tight, To laugh all through the night, That’s what I want most in my life, To be a mother, best friend, and wife. I want to know That someone’s always there for me. I want it to show; Our love will live forever, unconditionally. Sometimes I think it was not meant to be, I was never supposed to be truly happy. Because everyone I love just walks away; No one in my life decides to stay. My heart is full with love to give, Just waiting for the one. I want to sing, I want to live, To dance out in the sun. I lost a part of me a while ago; That part stays hidden, I do not show. I don’t open up so easily, It takes some time to get to know me. I’m afraid of getting close Then getting my heart broken. This is not the life I chose, I leave things bottled in. Sometimes so sad and I don’t know why; All I want to do is cry. I can’t forgive those that hurt me, I just wish that they could only see. The damage they have done to a child, So innocent and pure. Now heartbroken and emotions running wild, So jaded and insecure.