It's Not Alright

When I wake up Are my memories Memories I wish I could undo or redo And get it right the second around When someone ask me if I'm alright I say yes But on the inside I'm yelling it's not alright It no excuse for things I did or going to do I just want to know why everyone always told me Everything is going to be alright Cause it sure doesn't feel alright I turn into a horrible mother I turn into a cancer chick no one wants I lay awake and wonder why did everyone always tell me That it's going to be alright Lord help me.