It's Devastating How

It's devastating how... From being the closest of friends, we are strangers now. Well, I admit you're not the only one to blame. I wish I hadn't turned a blind eye to your games. I always pretended to be alright in front of you. But I find it hard to imagine you with someone new. It's devastating how She's the one you adore now. You act as if it was all my fault. I failed to realize that this was your default. I won't lie; she's far prettier and funnier than me. I guess we weren't just meant to be. It's devastating how... I'm alone now. I realize now that you've only come to me for favors. It was stupid of me to ignore your behavior. Your memories become my nightmares every night. As usual, I just shrugged it off by uttering "alright." It's clearly devastating how... No one is ever going to be by my side now. I thought you wouldn't leave me when I was surrounded by some horrible beings. However, you recently became one too and hurt my feelings. But I'll make an effort to let go and go on like you. Maybe someday I'll be happy too.