Is This a Reason To Say Goodbye? Or This Is Just An Alibi?

i want to say lots of things to HER..... i want to express my thoughts to HER..... i want to spent time with her.... i want to love her with my hole heart..... i want to love and be loved..... i want her to be mine.... BUT.... i guess..... those WANTS.... are.... ONLY existing on my MIND.... if she only knew... i was suffering of being heart broken....... dreaming that one day you'll be mine.... it hurts ALOT.... i feel that my world is turning in to darkness.... that only you are my light.... but i know..... that... i will never see a light..... till the end of the time..... i was very madly in love with her.... but to her.... i have no space in her heart even as a FRIEND... i am now at a stage of denying that till now i still love her.... i want to set free my self from her.... i want to let go... i want to cry but i can't... FOR.... theirs a part of me saying that .... i have still the chance..... that i may love her as i can.... but i ask my self.... are you willing to be hurt AGAIN?... what should i follow.... to love her? or to say goodbye? is this a reason to say goodbye? or this is just an alibi?