Internally Paralyzed

Each day becoming easier, I go back to my routine, The stress no longer strangling my heart, instead God's giving me peace, Still feeling the pain from time to time, but what I've come to find, Is that these were your problems all along, they weren't even mine, God showed me as I felt for you in the silence you left behind, That you were the one from the beginning, who needed me in your life, That I wasn't searching for you, that i was content with all the love that i had, He reminded me with all my family and friends and showed me how beautiful I truly am, When I tend to look back I'm still hurt, and it still brings tears to my eyes, That you couldn't see the love that made that effort and stood right in front of you the whole time, You cried abandonment over n over, but you don't see that's what you do, It was never them that walked away in silence, honey, it was you!, You never learned how to communicate your heart, and now I see it's not my fault, So I really feel bad you internalize so much, I pray God opens your heart,