Internal Bruise

Here I am, back again Hoping to find some words to say Wanting it to come like rain Pouring out with disarray All through today I have been Wanting to let out my scream Crying to let go of the sin She has forgotten, so it seems Why can't I transform the blows The ones that attack the heart So I could just easily expose Physical pain that quickly departs Glances at you turns to hurt Listening to your voice My mouth tastes dirt You gave me no other choice Now I loathe the time I spent with you How I wish I could take it back Way back then, I never knew Behind your disguise hides a plague I have tried so hard without result You seem so neutral towards My explanations, an insult To my effort, no fruit of reward So here I am, back again Just wanted to tell you this To keep myself from being insane Your friendship I will no longer miss