Intamate Feelings Inside

Why is being intimate so very hard It can make you happy or very sad To let others in your deep inner core To let them inside that tightly shut door Things are hidden for reasons unknown The stuff that’s lost but somehow grown It can stop your feelings or being touched Shut you down and bury you under ground What do you say without being hurt It’s telling all them then you get burnt Struggling with emotions everyday Causing the pain to never go away Having closeness is to reveal all you have Is risking your trust inside a bee hive Being left to carry the pain that I hold How do I get better before I grow old Who do you trust and who do you not I have lost everything and feel caught How do I open to experience love again Let my heart heal, so I don’t have to abstain Letting me share what is trapped in my heart I know I have to some how make a start Bit by bit it will take me some time I want that freedom back, it will become min