Inside of Me

Agony reaps at my soul everytime I watch you walk away My whole world crumbles cause you cant stay My eyes will not close at nights when you are not here The tears fall neverending when no ones here and when in the presence of others im hard as stone smiling perfectly for all the world to see They think im doing just fine enjoying my time alone but im not fine im not happy Forlorn I am crying on the bedroom floor, with no will to get up Screaming in my head, with thoughts of sorrow ,regret and dread im barley breathing im pretty much dead my soul is burning and turning to ash the memories haunt me of our perfect past I guess happiness isin't meant to last blown up in a gust everything I love just blows away from me I jump and try to grasp it but all I catch is cold air How can pain this great be real when its the only thing left that I feel but still I wave my magic wand and somehow I smile so noone can see What really goes on inside of me