Inside of Me

A great sorrow is consuming me, tearing me from inside causing insanity. But you're the one who pulled me from my misery, and I'll walk through hell to make sure they don't take you away from me. They say that my expression of feeling is shown inappropriately, they say it's a sign of a teenage impurity. But it's what's deep inside that they can't see, all these feelings down inside of me. As my world falls away, and I've yet to see a reason, all my emotions begin to decay and my feelings go on the run. And I'm scared to be the only one, whose hourglass is half full before all is said and done. These thoughts trickle down, as all of your pain fills the air around. I guess time is catching up behind me, but that doesn't mean these problems are gonna control me. Again I found myself wandering around in the dark, filled with my anger, agony and the pain that comes with being apart. My thought I'm thinking, I hope aren't misleading, I only want what's best for you, not what's best for me to do. I'm tired of all the false accusations, all the misinterpreted contemplations. It has darkened the light in my eye and created a hole in my soul, but I'm still fighting hard not to lose control. I told you I'd always be there for you, to always help you to fight the pain you're suffering through. But now I'm confused as to what to do, consumed by guilt of the pain I'm causing you. My heart feels as though it wants to shatter into ash, as if my body, mind, and soul were made of glass. I'm here today only knowing that because of this I may be gone tomorrow, this thought fills me with anger, pain, and the greatest of sorrow. I've been knocked from grace, and cast into hell, the agony eating away at my shell. It has come to the point that at times I feel dead inside, running isn't an option since theirs nowhere to hide. Crying out, because I made you cry, the pain this has caused you is killing me inside. When you cry I cry, 'cause deep down apart of me is trying to die, and there is no explanation, and no reason why.