Inside I Cried

This pain, for so many years, Left me in a state impossible to shed tears. Inside, I cried. Within, were strings in my heart, tightly they were tied. You could throw me, you could beat me, You could whip me in a circle of your greed, I could sit, wait and bleed. My deterioration was your elation. It's this wretched place, It's got me crazed one way and you in many others, For you, your heart fluttered. For me, my mind went to the gutter. If I could be blessed by your death, You'd get my blessings by my last breath. But on this day of gloom Inside the black roses always bloom. You love it when I abide to what you wanted, If I resigned like a dog I'd be hunted. Although alone I was always treated like a dog and alone I licked my wounds in the distance you laughed like a fool but I could care less nail me to the wall with you and your tools I'd enjoy that foolish look on your face Hell, I'd look you in the eyes and you'd question me being out of place You could throw me, you could beat me, You could whip me in a circle of your greed, I could sit, wait and bleed. My deterioration was your elation. As these days pass soon I will disappear without a trace And all I could hope for is never again see your face. All I ask if my prayer is granted that seeing your heart stop is surely a great deal of magnificence Let alone the thought of your absence I'd be glad to bless my own prayer one way or another When I strike you you'd utter a small word a yell of plea but let's be glad in the end we'll both be set free.