Inlove With Her and Novacaine

Never knew love the way I know it now Never will I know even when I ask how She left and that was all I'm trying desperately to climb outside this wall I grip the roses stem and blood drips down my wrist I drop to the floor, put my hands on my forehead while in a fist We shared an oath from our lips to Gods ears I placed myself in front of her knife to the heart to quench her fears It killed me to love and lose I'm losing sleep so I smash my clock back to snooze I can't believe I thought she was the one to save me It turns out she was the one to enslave me My trust ran deep like blood coursing through her vein I need to numb the bitter taste so I use novacaine The thought of her is making my heart race My walls are gone and now I have too much space I think my loss is starting to hit me I can't breathe at the thought that she will forget me I fall from my knees with my face sideways on the floor I grip the rose tighter & tell myself I don't want to love evermore I'm fighting the truth and reality at this time I'm in too deep, I'm too weak to climb I feel a cold running through my veins followed by a last chill My eyes are awake yet my body lie still The lights are dimming and my life is flashing in spurts I guess this is what it means when they say love hurts...