Incomprehensible Existential Conundrum Confronts Mine Consciousness Part I

Descendent of proto humans dumbfounded, mystified, stupefied, et cetera despite plethora of technological trappings, whereby world wide web virtually linkedin allowing, enabling, and providing instantaneous electronic feedback, I still experience dearth of mental, psychological and social meaningfulness amidst cerebral chaos courtesy healthy mailer daemons occupying sixty plus shades of gray matter more valuable then any terrain designated as Silicon Valley or Wall Street constituting nexus of brain power, where metaphysical thoughts proliferate and ponder such basic thought such as who art yours truly what (I declare) will constitute date with death and where will corporeal flesh and spirit separately journey? Since time immemorial millennium generations happenstance bestowed *****sapiens ability to become self aware double edged figurative sword allowing, enabling, providing... forebears of yesteryear to marvel at life, and reckon with death, which mixed blessing wrestling with living and dying also confronts man/womankind during twenty first century said inscrutable dilemma, albeit reconciling mortality linkedin with consciousness heightened, tested, under_scored... particularly at demise dearly departed inadvertently affect upon surviving family members hijacking, offsetting, upending... fracturing emotional composure prompting immediate questions regarding purposefulness living nee, being born essentially to die predestined to pass away identical fate decreed upon all animals and plants bolstered by believing deity foreordained every creature past, present, and future, yet most pronounceable afflicting non denominational, non religious, non sectarian case in point Unitarian, vis a vis visa versa secular humanists, especially nonsensical poet wannabe riddled with perplexity about nature of being alive wondering what explains essence constituting individual fluke finding meaning scuttling across world wide web hither and yon, to and fro dumbfounded at futility absolute zero adequate answers (again, unless one subscribes to codified doctrinal dogma i.e. religion, faith, creed...) I attest as garden variety primate baffled, flummoxed, nonplussed...